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26-12-2005

Today the children were far more quiet.
Nyo (autistic) and Thami (ADHD) just need more time to get used to the fact that these days are different from the usual weekend days.
I woke up with a burning migraine, but as we weren't going out, it didn't matter much.
I just couldn't visit all the sites I wanted, to wish all a merry christmas.

Had a talk on the phone with someone who has also more children with special needs.
We're far more housebound than others and at times it feels like life is slipping away and we do nothing else with our lives than caring for the kids and doing laundry, leaving our talents unused.

It's true...in a way.

On the other hand, I've been able to broaden my horizon through internet. Have gained friends that have opened a view into other cultures.

I also have the opportunity to make people aware of important issues and I take a strong stand against discrimination and for care and peace.
I could have done more without children, but I won't die feeling I haven't left my traces on this world.

The day ended with a large surprise:

Snow!!!

5 minutes before midnight the street got white, so we've had a few minutes of a white christmas after all.

Will add a new page tomorrow about the fact that our christmastime is different from yours.

dec 26


Made by Sammy

25-12-2005

So it's christmas.

Merry Christmas to you.

You can find my wish ::here::

Next year I won't be at home.
I have a whole year to make it come true.
Ofcourse I want to be in england then.
But everything is OK, just not to be at home.

I woke up because Thami, Nyo and Jim were yelling at each other.
Jim was angry because they disturbed his sleep.
Nyo was angry because Thami had ripped a page out of his book, and Thami was angry because... well, I never took the time to sit down and be patient enough to listen to the words he stutters out, and to the sentences that are OK in his head but come out like a scramble game.

There I stood, on christmasmorn...ordering all three to a place for themselves: Jim to his bed, Nyo to mine, so he had a place to read and Thami to his stupid video-game.

Ofcourse I couldn't sleep anymore.
So I transferred some more pages to the new site.
It works far better at orgfree, so maybe I'll stay.
I don't know.
I'm fed up with the free sites and the trouble they cause. I just need my own domain.

I feel a bit uneasy to take the adoptions to this site without the permission of the adoptionshoppe owners, even though I just copy the pages.
I won't disturb them at christmas, will do that later.

Then maybe I'll leave internet completely.
Some people put up so many superfluous codes on their pages, that I can't even tag them a merry christmas.
And I feel so sad because I can't even enter the christmaspages of my sister.

Lars had taken video at the open balleslessons of last week, so we sat down to watch them.
It's interesting to see that the twins have developed so different.

Djenne has the feel for it.
I was impressed by the way she moved and the grace she radiated.
Ofcourse she isn't a perfect dancer (who is?), but I've been a talent-spotter for many years, so I know what I see. Wow!!
Her teacher moved her up tp another group two weeks ago, but even now she is better than them.

Yinti is doing well in her own way. She has the right feel, but not the stability of Djenne. But she's swift and enjoys every little bit of the lesson.

So we had a lot of fun watching the video, with me commenting on everything.
They can value good technical comments.

It made me feel wanting to teach again.
I miss ballet so enormously.

For the rest of the day the kids kept relatively quiet.

Unlike other countries we have no presents at christmas.
Jim got a box at work, but it contained nothing to eat or use at christmas.
So all the cheer had to come from me again, and I'm feeling so terribly empty.

It's great to see people on internet with lovely pictures of trees and piles of presents, but it just makes me feel amazed that people who tell me they have no money can dress up so wonderful, have so many gifts and cook and bake so many special things.

I'm lucky to be not jealous.
We have a roof, clothes and food.
But we had no presents at Sinterklaas and no fancy food, but some minor things at the sales, like a package of mushrooms and a bag with fresh red fruit like berries, strawberries, rapsberries and such.

So we had a dinner of:
mushroom soup
potatoes, carrots, mined meat with mushrooms
ice with fresh berries.


So that was quite nice.

The BBC broadcasted a ballet, so we all enjoyed that.

Tomorrow the second christmasday.......

dec 25

dec 22 2005

The girls had only half a day at school, then had the afternoon off, followed by a christmasdinner.
So plenty of time to play and dress up.

They both have a circle skirt. A dark red one with embroidery.
very nice.

Djenne had a glitter shirt on top, and Yinti fitted about 6 white blouses, and found the one with the right feel.

No problem finding the right "legs". They have plenty of all colours because of ballet.

When it was time to fetch them it rained very bad.
The school planned to hand out bishops wine to the waiting parents, but that didn't work out.
Stef went to fetch them and he didn't feel at easy with all those parents wanting to get the left-overs....

Well, the other years we have been lucky to get the unopened packages with limonade and milk and such, so the girls and Stef said their wishes to the teachers and were happy to be able to leave.

Turned out that Djenne had received a little caldle from her teacher and Yinti a clothespin fitted as a snowman.

It gave me a good feel that they were so happy with so little, and that they appreciated the special referral to these days.

Uploaded some pages to the new site, to lift the bandwith burden on the topcities wintersite.

dec 22