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february 26.
After yesterday I didn't feel to open and kind to the kid involved.
There comes a time mom isn't too ready to play the therapist and that day was today.
I thought it better he started a conversation. And even better if it started with an appology.
Ofcourse none was uttered.
He only talked to Jim, because he needed him to give batteries.
he completely ignored me.
Up till now I still don't know what I have done wrong in his eyes, so I'm getting really curious.
When it was near dinner he still was ignoring me.
Pity Jim was cooking otherwise he wouldn't have gotten one bite.
Jim told him he was way over the line and said he wanted an appology.
So he got one.
Then Jim told me there was someone who even deserved more of an appology, and Lars started joking around.
"Who is there any more in the room?"
"I can't think of anyone else", etc etc.
Not once or twice, but over and over again, untill I walked away.
So he kept out of the way all evening, while the rest of us watched the closing ceremony of the olympics.
We nearly switched it off, as it was boring and chaotic in the beginning. But the girls liked it and so we kept looking and in the end we enjoyed it very much.
I valued that they also made clear that there are 4 important tribes of indigenous people living there.
So that's another weekend over and gone.
Next week is a holiday for the schools.
No rest for the wicked!
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february 25.
Co-o-o-o-ldddd....
It's just freezing temperature, but the wind is so mean.
Lars is in a bad mood again.
making the day a living hell by his bad behaviour.
He keeps asking us for expensive equipment and he's jealous of my new digital camera.
I feel like throwing it to his head, so I've put it behind a lock. LOL!
So after an afternoon full of tension he finally gets to give words to his bad mood: his ..(read Jim's) video-camera doesn't work properly anymore.
He was so stupid to say it after closing time of the shops, so it can't be brought to repair.
He keeps on slapping doors, banging to the walls of his room and being very rude to whoever speeks to him.
Monday first thing in the morning I'll call all psychologists in town if they have a place.
If he doesn't want to go, I will.
He can't deal with his own temper, and he certainly can't stop it.
It's getting to me, and I cried... arghhh...I hate it to cry because my kids disappoint me.
By now I know I can hardly reach him when he's in such a mood. The bloackage is in him, and I'm not failing.
This morning a friend came by to bring some clothes.
Nothing special.
Their friend has a girl just above the age of the twins, and sahe biys what she likes and gives away what doesn't fit and is still OK.
So now they have a few very nice and new T-shirts and two denim trousers.
I opened the door and he walked in and gave me a friendly kiss. Nothing special either.
We know each other for 17 years now, and his wife is a friend too.
But that there is still a living being out there who can touch me and likes me hit something.
Makes me feel I'm worth of friendship and that I deserve more in life.
More than a sun who's playing the nut and makes us all feel tense.
That boy is terrorising us and I will do everything I can to prevent that from happening again.
If he can't deal with his moods, he either accepts that I teach him how to, or goes to a psychologist, or goes to a mental institution.
I feel like leaving the house with the girls and not come back.
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february 24.
The girls went to school as witches.
It's carnaval.
Made photo's with the digital camera but I need one of the older boys to put them on the computer.
So you have to wait a bit.
Woke up this morning and found the world freezing again. With a very nasty cold wind blowing.
Am I lucky that I can stay in bed tomorrow morning, instead of rushing out far too early to go to bagpipe lessons.
On the other hand, I'll miss the relaxed feel there is.
I'm now waiting for the money Jim has transferred to paypall so the highland hornpipe can be send.
It's a long time ago I was so very eager for an instrument. LOL! Feel like a kid going to the candystore with a handful of coins.
Yesterday went through a lot of paperwork.
Everytime when I go through the letters about Stef I get stressed.
It's about half a year now that diagnosis is lasting, whereas with Thami and Nyo we were in and out in just a few weeks.
I can't belief we have to put up with this.
In the meantime Stef is telling us that everything at school is going even better than before.
Can it go worse??
After the holiday of next week, we'll call his mentor.
I just can't believe she's going to say that everything is going well.
Wish my friend calls for coffee... I'm soo tired. I can do with a good boost of energy. LOL!
HHhaaahaaa! She just called! LOL!
Later:
The girls had a great time at school. I'll put the link to their photos at the left at this page.
The first photos on the new camera. Including red eyes, excluding the one outside that the automatic function overexposed.
I almost long back to my old camera. LOL!
Later in the afternoon we watched speedskating. We won both gold and bronse on the 10 km for men.
Wooohooo! I'm so proud of them. They did well.
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